Thursday, March 15, 2007

Its sometimes strange how people (including me sometimes) are so much interested in others lives than they are about themselves. We are bothered about everything that has got not even a remote connection with our life or work. It sometimes amazes me how much satisfaction we get in proving others are wrong, we are perfect, others are irritating, immoral, dishonest etc etc etc ad infinitum.
Whereas, if we really set out to think about it, such things dont really do us any good other than take away some precious mental energy and time :(. But it s also so true that its kinda difficult to avoid it, especially considering the environment we live in, the kind of people we are surrounded by. They say curiosity is not a crime.. But is it worth our time and concentration to be curious about other s lives, love stories, personal affairs, shortcomings?? Why do we have to be so judgemental about everyone? Cant we just let them be as they are as long as it does not make any difference to us?? Well i dont know. Some things are just so confusing.
But maybe given a chance i would prefer to leave others alone and concentrate more upon improving my quality of life and work. Ultimately i value myself with how true i have been to myself all day and what i have accomplished at the end of the day. Maybe its time we started proving ourselves through our work rather than proving others wrong thro our words and expressions..

lots of love,
yours truely :)

Thursday, March 8, 2007


I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces
and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.
I can only love you and be your friend.

another grt one written by some anonymous entity


This one is not my own.. found it on the net and loved it to the core..

I miss you since God called you
To his radiant realms above;
I miss just being with you
And the sharing of our love

I miss you in the morning
When the sunrise gilds the skies,
I miss your tender greeting
And the love light in your eyes.

I miss you in the daytime
As I walk my lonely way,
Knowing how much more I'll miss you
At the closing of the day

And yet, deep down within me
Far beyond the grief and pain,
I know that sometime, somewhere
We shall surely meet again.

That in the shining realms above,
Beyond life's little day
Will come the flowering of our love
Along God's chosen way.

I searched the wonders of nature
For visions as lovely as you,
Found snow-covered peaks and waterfalls
And roses with sequins of dew.

Then taking my palette and brushes
I captured the joys that I saw
And hung all the canvases on my walls
Till the walls couldn't hold any more.

Surrounded by these many splendours
My dazzled mind held in their thrall,
I spent several hours and didn't feel
The pain of your absence at all.

But alas all my beautiful pictures
Began to dissolve in the night,
And walls once again stark and empty
Greeted the cold morning light.

I thought of you then and remembered
All the treasures beyond your sweet face.
And I knew you were one of the wonders
That nature could never replace.

I desperately crave for the day when i ll be writing things as beautiful as this.

Me calling....

Why are you always so near to me...
in my thoughts........
Yet in reality....
I am unaware of your whereabouts..

Why did you give me
all the love,the warmth,the laughter....
was it just to take
everything away from me soonafter........

I depended on your words, your love,yourself...
you gave me all this and much much more..
but suddenly one day ...
you were there for me no more..

Was it my behaviour,
my words that hurt you??
Or was it just..
a game played on me by you??

Why does this happen to me
each time i like someone...??
Is it the destiny that has decided..
that for me there should be no one??

A simple thought

hey friends....

Have you people ever wondered what life and happiness is all about??...... i am sure you have.... and i am also sure none of us have ever found any convincing answers....... well thats why life is the most mysterious thing ever created....

we see loads of people in our lives...experience a contrariety of emotions... undergo huge number of different experiences.... but at the end of the day what is it that seems to be most important for us?? what makes us feel most satisfied and happy??

Do you feel happy just because your english teacher praised your excellent expression or is it because you won the gold medal in table tennis ...or because nobody could beat you in that tough programming contest...or is it because that someone special said you looked great in blue??? well i do agree all these things make us feel great... but believe me friends none of them last..all these happiness are just momentary....

So what is it that gives us actual pleasure??? let me tell you what it is... All the real happiness and satisfaction depends on how true you have been to yourself all day... what is that small thing you have done to lighten up somebody else s pain..... to make a grieved soul laugh....

The happiness is not because your english teacher praised you.... its because you helped a friend who is poor in grammer and he got the highest marks in class..... it s not because you won a gold medal in the game...its because you had the character to step down from the game to take a sick freind to the doctor..... its not because you won or didnt win the programming contest.. its because you gave it your best shot.... its not because that someone special complimented you its because you complimented someone who is usually ridiculed.....

So dear friends .... you see what makes you actually happy???? Its not about what the world gives to us... its about what you give to the world without any desire for returns..

please give this email a thought and let me know what you feel....

A bit of me

I have often wondered about what kind of a person i really am beneath all the fake smiles and stupid expressions i sometimes have to give... I realized there s nothing as difficult in the world as figuring out yourself.
I am someone who wants a lot of freedom.. complete undisputed freedom about everything. I want to live the way i want without anyone questioning. I want to life my life , every moment to the fullest. I hate it when i have to give explanations, though i realize that we need to be in the good books of others at least to some extent in order to survive.
Of course that doesnt mean i hate people, or i am an introvert or something. I love quite a many people. I like people who are capable, mature and sensible. The more emotional the person is the more he/she appeals to me. I have never really bothered to find out what others feel about me. I have never felt the need for it. There are some people who have accepted me( or maybe are tolerating me) as i am and i will not ask for more.
But yes, there was a time when i was slightly younger when i felt a desperate need for friends and friendship. That was the time when i was not very successful, (not tht i am now :P) , not very out-going or good looking or any of such things. But i never got anyone at that time, I dont feel the need for them now. Maybe i have just outgrown them. I sometimes wonder if such people really do get any friends at all?? Maybe somethings are better left unanswered.
But i have 2 to 3 friends whom i respect and love, who have stood by me like a rock and i can do anything for them I want people to appreciate me for wht i am and wht i do, not because i look the way i do or some such crap. Of course the circle would be much smaller but does tht matter? as long as they are true?